Archive for May, 2006

A great day!

Having another great day. Killed the cardio – did it slower but more consistantly.
I was able to make the chicken, and brought some good fruits today.

My abdomen is stuck at 35″, but I’m thinking it’s gonna drop before monday – we’ll see how that goes.

I’m just thrilled that I’m able to wake up in the morning and say “today I’ll work out.”… not “I can do it tomorrow” or “I did it yesterday” – those don’t matter to me. I only have today, so I do what I can.

Off to go eat.

Killed it today!

It doesn’t matter if I fail 10 times, as long as I get up 11.
I’m over the money. I’m over the date 7/4. When it happens, it happens. If it costs me 1,500 to do it, no biggie. People spend a lot more for lipo :)

I had biscuits last night – with butter. In spite of taking pills, I still woke up at 3 am (it’s ALWAYS 3 am) and spent some quality alone time, about 45 minutes worth. I went back to bed and was having an allergy attack. It dawned on me that maybe I’m doing so much better, allergy-wise, this year, while everyone else is suffering, could be diet-related. Anyway, I took a pill and went to sleep. 6:45 came much too fast, and much to groggily. I decided to take some caffeine gum and get to the gym. No more feeling sorry for myself, no more excuses. So I went. And I totally wrecked it! I dressed pretty warmly to see if I could get myself to sweet a bit more then normal. I did an hour of HARD cardio and felt great afterwards.

How will tomorrow be? I’m not sure – all I can take care of is today – each day.
I never understood how “living in the now” could apply to fitness and wealth building. They are both long-term goals. But I think it clicked today. Make a plan, and each day, do your best. Ignore the future, ignore the past and just do what you can.

Needless to say, I feel AWESOME today.

Lamest pig-out ever.


First, let me say thank you to everyone who commented on yesterday’s entry. I’m still having major trouble, but all that support is really really helpful.

I didn’t eat all day today, so when I finally got home and was able to leave again, I went hunting for food. Instead of wendy’s, I decided to head over to Kings (a local supermarket). They say to never shop when hungry, but I don’t like to listen to “them”. I skipped all the packaged stuff and ended up getting the lamest pig-out meal ever. Apples, peaches, honeydew, raspberries, dried papaya, carrots and lemonade. I know it’s still a lot of “junk” I don’t need, but I figure it’s better then a family sized bag of tortilla chips and salsa.

Fading.

I’m having trouble keeping the faith. I’ve gotten it in my head that it’s an impossible task to get visible abs in my time-frame. While I still have the burning desire to achieve my goal, I have the feeling like I shouldn’t be killing myself to get there.

I know it’s very silly to think this way – and it’s totally not rational, I’m really fading here.

More weekend woes.

I’m having trouble with the weekend again. I just run around non stop and don’t have time to make food the priority it needs to be. More on this tomorrow.

Struggling

Today is rough!
Last night, I had very strong carb cravings, and ended up eating a few handfuls of kid’s cereal.
This morning, I am just so tired. I got to the gym, but forgot my heart rate monitor. I started doing the elliptical anyway and right away wanted to stop. I convinced myself to get through at least 5 minutes, then I could quit. After 5 minutes I was feeling a little better and decided that I’d do 30 – that’s a lot better then nothing. At 25 minutes, I decided to stick it out through 45.
The downside is, I think I sapped what little energy I did have doing that.

The only thing I can think of is that maybe the taekwondo class and/or the alabama trip has raised my metabolism a bit.

What I know for sure is – I’m knackererd!

In any given situation…

In any given situation, the best thing to do is the right thing. The next best thing is the wrong thing. The worst thing you can do — is nothing at all.

I’m not sure who that’s from – maybe Chruchill?, in any event, I haven’t posted today until now b/c I’ve been so busy and thought I had to sit down for 20 minutes and write out this long, heart-felt post.
Forget it, It’s better to have something then nothing, even if the something isn’t perfect.

Taekwondo was AWESOME last night! Afterwards, I spent an hour talking to my sister about goals, focus and ego. We had a great talk, and it reminded me of growing up in taekwondo and not getting home till 10 at night b/c everyone was standing around talking.
I’m VERY sore today from class, but it’s more then bearable at this point, I’ll let you know where I stand tomorrow.

You’ll see I have some new stats down at the bottom. I’m adding pushups and situps to my daily routine (not tomorrow tho – gotta recover!) I plan on doing somewhere in the neighborhood of 52,000 in the next year, ala the “UBBT”:http://ultimateblackbelttest.com/. wish me luck.

That’s all I’ve got – new pictures are up, things are moving along. Slowly, but moving.

My Alabama Trip

This is being cross-posted to my other “blog”:http://metaatem.net/2006/05/24/my-alabama-trip

I have a total lack of motivation today. I really want to blame it on staying up until 2am to try and catch up on my rss feeds, but I don’t think I can.
I think this is more of an existential thing. I feel like I’m being slowly given the answer to a question I hadn’t asked yet. A few things are happening here and there that are making me reluctantly examine my environment, both external and internal.

Trouble getting out of bed, not getting to the gym, chicken gone bad… it’s been a rough morning. I am taking another “Taekwondo class”:http://www.akastners.com/ tonight at my sister’s school. I’m really *REALLY* looking forward to it. It’s almost like coming home.

I also have quite a few projects up in the air at once, and I feel like I really want to address them all.

Don’t get me wrong. I am still 100% responsible for the direction and progress in my life. I’m just feeling pulled in directions I hadn’t considered. And those
directions are pretty much opposites from each other.

Now for my trip!
We left NJ around 10pm wednesday night in my “Mom’s new RV”:http://www.flickr.com/photos/65354243@N00/148446886/, after my first taekwondo class in JUST over 10 years (I left for SF on april 13th, 1996, and taught class the night before.) I had an awesome time, but was really really winded! Anyway, we drove straight through, taking shifts. We arrived in Moundville, AL, 20 miles from our destination of Greensboro, AL at 6pm thursday. And by “arrived”, I mean broke down completely on the side of the road. The locals were VERY, VERY nice, and spent about 3 hours looking at our RV, finally coming to the expert conclusion that it was the fuel pump. We called a tow truck and after another two hours of waiting, we were at the church that everyone on the “UBBT”:http://www.ultimateblackbelttest.com/ build was staying at. A 5:30am wake up call by Tom Callos got everyone on their way. While everyone went to start the first day of building, my Mom and I went to the local Ford dealership in Demopolis (about 20 mins away) to have the RV worked on. As soon as we got there, and got our information sorted, the shop foreman, Charles, informed us that we’d be joining him for lunch. Then, an hour later, he told us that his wife and mother were on their way, and we’d all go out to lunch together. We ended up at a local, authentic southern food joint (complete with sordid back story) for some chicken fingers, catfish, banana pudding, beans and other greasy, suprisingly tasty food. Then it was back to the VERY boring waiting area. Demopolis Ford vending machines If not for John’s PSP and my nintendo DS, I think we would have lost our minds.
As far as we knew, everything was going along great. Great that is, until 6pm when one of the guys came in holding a round, mangled piece of metal, informing us that nothing could be done, and we’d have to wait until monday.
So there we are, 20 miles from where we need to be, WITH our living area and most of the tools we brought, being told that not only could we not use our “house”, but we’d have to wait until MONDAY – when we HAD to leave by sunday afternoon in order to get home on time! Ug.
Somehow, they conjured up a miracle and were able to dis-mangle that piece and get it in place. After a few more close calls, the RV was done – at 8pm! When he came in to tell us that the RV was out front, waiting for us, a full 3 hours after they closed, on a friday night, we asked him how much the bill was.
“Have a nice trip”.
WHAT? are you kidding me? So after we MADE him take a tip (everyone we dealt with in the south abhorred the notion of getting a tip), we found a dumping station in Demopolis, and headed back to the church. We missed the first movie they showed that night, “King Gimp”:http://www.hbo.com/kinggimp/king/, produced by UBBT Team 2 and 3 member, “Nancy Walzog”:http://ultimateblackbelttest.com/contact_view.asp?contact_id=132, but did get to see her new version of the Ultimate Black Belt Test Movie she made as part of her test last year. It’s awesome!

Saturday, another early wake up, and it was off to the work site. The first day for my mom and me, the second for the rest of the team.
Saturday on the build It was a LONG day, where my still painful scalp sun-burn started (I was only able to borrow a visor, and my hair is still really short). Lots of work got done, but there were too many people there for most of the day and not enough jobs. When the walls started going up, there was plenty to do for everyone. After working all day, we went back to the church to eat (more catfish, hushpuppies and beans), then watch a demo by some of the UBBT folks. Jim (my brother-in-law) wanted to find some crawfish to eat, so a big group headed out while I went to bed.

Sunday was an awesome build day. It was really rewarding. My sister and I built two sets of stairs, stringers and all. We had to leave early, 3pm, in order to get back in time for me to work tuesday and my sister to teach monday night. So after a group photo we headed out.

I had a really great time. I’m making something related to the trip to share with everyone who participated. But that is one of those projects I was talking about earlier.

The Build Team

I’m BACK!

I’ll have a long post about my trip shortly chronicling my diet and overall experience. Here’s the short version: I ate well most of the time, a few bad things. Not much cardio, but LOTS of hard work. I had a really interesting time.

My cardio today was awesome. I decided to up the intensity in general, I’m gonna keep my heart rate above 145, but below 160. I’m also going to do an hour or more each day (except for one day on the weekend.)

Sweet (new) home, Alabama.

Well, I’m off to AL.

I’m leaving tonight and will be back posting on tuesday. We’re building a house over the weekend with the “Rural Studio”:www.ruralstudio.com.

I’ve been slacking off going to the gym. Staying up late, making cool stuff like this:

http://metaatem.net/drops/?group=moonshots

(change ?group to any flickr group, or make it ?id= or ?tags= or nothing at all)….

I’m leaving at like 4 or so, and we’re driving through the night I think. I won’t have internet access, maybe not even cell phone access…. I will be keeping notes in my Moleskine though.

Sorry for the late, quick post… I’ve got a million things going on :/

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